My City

Looking out on the river bend Looking out on the thing that isn't Looking out on the freeway's push and pull Looking out for the current Little spells of forgetfulness Little sounds that are shrill and urgent Little insects that sting as they come and go Little moments of purpose I loved you I wore you out I missed you Where are you now? This town is a monolith This town is a crowded movie This town is a depot, I come and go This town is my city I hate you I tore you down I miss you Where are you now? Looking bad like those Vegas odds Wear a smile like it's camouflage Today was a smoking sky Today was a civic menace Today I went walking while things explode Some sad independence I want to be just as loud All this freedom just freaks me out Risk it all on the game of chance Chasing love like an ambulance