Antidote

Ive been out there on my own And Ive never been running home No help needed at all Ive been alone for many years I fell in love with the silence sounding like a storm When no ones yelling in your dome People never searched for whereabouts They dont even care if youre around Lost boy in his room and hes dreaming sky high And down to the pits of hell he yells The agony and pain that he might feel Doesnt have to be real To feel as if steel yielded by a knight might slowly pierce In his heart yea In his fuckin heart The blood thats leakin out is dark Seems like hes already lost Lost hope, don't float Sink into the drain, I go Won't surface, give into the curse And succumb to the pain I show Rip the photo from the wall to the floor Glass shards of the frame I broke Now I stand barefoot in the snow Thinking I deserve this, but I just don't know I don't want an antidote I'ma let the poison take me now Feel it when I start to choke Hold me underwater girl, make me drown I don't want an antidote I'ma let the poison take me now Feel it when I start to choke Hold me underwater girl, make me drown Ive been screaming out into the night Im hopeless, feeling lost Ive been seeing things that cant be Still I hear them in the dark Whats your motive know your plotting Sharp the knife and make the cut Dont you dare to freeze a second Things will heat up, hell will come Cold stares, lookin at me Hateful smiles, directed at me Do you think I care about what you seem to see? No i do not, cause you are nothing to me Ive been runnin on the side lines Grew up by myself People shouting things at me No it wasnt fair Trusted in the ones we loved And got paid back pain Still havem on my mind I know who to blame Im doin fine now Once was gettin insane Remember countin hours Lookin at blank walls Took me years just to learn How to order my thought Took years to find a sense of peace Inside of my heart No way out of here No way but to fear I dont want an antidote Imma let the poison take me now Feeling when I start to choke Hold me underwater girl make me drown I dont want an antidote Imma let the poison take me now Feeling when I start to choke Hold me underwater girl make me drown