Sadie

I can see her with my eyes closed Maybe she's in a different time zone I wasn't there when the lights went out But also, what the hell do I know? Most the time I feel like I'm living with my blinds closed I've been making piles of these pencil shavings Tryna draw her back to life I remember saying: mom, I think you love her more than you love me I know that was wrong Tryna draw back the light I've been making piles of these pencil shavings As if that'll bring her home Oh, and I know better Despite the fact that y'all think I'm crazy Well, I may be But either way I'ma keep shading and erasing Until I get the contrast right And I'ma keep shading, erasing Until I get the contrast right I know it won't be tonight And it won't be tomorrow either But if I stop trying, my spirit might die And my body would crumble And you'd be left with neither And where would leave us? I don't know, I don't know So I'ma keep shading and erasing Until I get the contrast right And I'ma keep shading and erasing Until I get the contrast right With my hopes so high and my head on fire Am I floating or flying? is my bed on fire? Is this bed even a bed? Am I dead or tired? There's red in my eyes, need a bed to disguise Ain't not tread on my tires I got sweat on my palms Can't even hold this pencil no more My head only lies Can't trust my mental no more Gon' sketch till I can't even stencil no more Shading and erasing, yeah I'ma keep shading and erasing Until I get the contrast right I'ma keep shading and erasing Until I get the contrast right