Bitter Tears

It's killing me inside every time I feed myself lies One question rises don't second guess Avoiding it doesn't help Maybe you should change your diet Time is now give it your best or live your life with the question Yea what if I did It's hard to live out truth when you messed up many times Never will I let battles take the best of me What I wish to change I'm climbing out my skin What does it take to break these chains What does it take What does it take Being a christian is not something you can fake for long Definitely not about being nicely dressed It has a lot to do with love more than just rules Without You I'm so far gone God Will you take back a perishing soul Make this broken heart shine light in a dark world So all can know it wasn't a mistake That You truly reign and changed a fallen sinner like me once again I'm losing my feelings If You are not near me Oh Lord can you hear me Anything anything Do You see me right now Can You hear my soul cry out Have You seen all the times I fell down Oh I'm failing to be and I'm failing to live Failing to live like a servant of God Please forgive me my sins Wont You cleanse me within of all of my pride How I want to sing out But I know they will judge Even though I hear applause What's the matter with him I can hear them talk now But its not me that's strong I learned that I'm failing to stand If You do not reach out Your hand And You always do just in time You save me just before I drown Father thank You For loving me the same Changing my heart each day I can not stand before You with empty hands Except my gift let it be Your will So my dedication will be worthy of Praise Will be worthy of Praise My Dear God I kneel down before You with a heavy heart But before I ask anything I wanted to thank You for everything in my life Thank You for each day that I can wake up And see all that's Yours even though I'm not always rejoicing I pray and humble myself before You You already know all that's piled up It has been so rough I am empty and lost Does my life have meaning Billions of people in the world could you possibly hear me I know I took too much on myself to live up to Although in the midst You changed my life for the better You stepped in when all I saw was darkness capturing me Pulled me out multiple times and I ran back in foolishly Your patience is long suffering Your love incomparable No doubt in my mind that Your character is beautiful You are my God My foundation unmovable Please help me to always hear Your voice I'm losing my feelings If You are not near me Oh Lord can you hear me Anything anything