I Kinda Suck

I always say nothing when I, I should have said something I always say nothing when I, I should have said something Cause I couldn't think of the right thing to say No, I can never think of the right thing to say I spend most of my days paralyzed by Fear, shame and anxieties Am I doing it right? Probably not. I'm probably not But I'll be damned if I'm not trying Depression is my oppression and it trumps all the rest I'd be content to die right now if I knew I wouldn't be missed But I know I'd be missed At least I know I'd be missed I'm terrified of all the kids I went to high school with I'm scared of what they think of me now Do they respect me? Do they like me? Do they hate me? Do they spite me? They probably just don't think of me at all, they don't think of me at all And I know I should care more about How I think and feel about myself But I just want to serve and I don't want to serve myself Cause I'm a lost cause and you are a lego box So tell me what to do and I will appease you I just want to please you, I just want to please you I just want to please you, I just want to please you I just want to please you, I just want to please you Because if I can't be happy, at least you can be Since I can't be happy, will you please be?