Plague, Struggles, And Sin

He stumbled out and brought a shadow castle out in this, so Lost the values that were brought, not so funny, now it seems And his mother seem quite distraught She believes that her son has lost the love she taught The behaviours that was forged well This could change But it won't, don't know if never will 'Cause only hope for love's inside a pill Searching for that something to realize The fire that burn inside his eyes Gonna cap out a quarter to four Jacket all black and he's up and out the door Tell his friends that he's home again but he's not He's still so lost And color drained from his face off Crawling on his knees, scraping bone Flesh piece on the mattress foam, well This could change But it won't, don't know if never will 'Cause only hope for love's inside a pill Searching for that something to realize The fire that burn inside his eyes Thought you found that someone for him You're sadly mistaken, he resorts to a bottle of gin Gaze into the bottle for a glimpse of hope The only thing he found was reflections that broke him Left him on the ground, crying, but no one could hear a sound Whispers of love, tremble escape He closes his eyes, searching for the way to fate But it won't, don't know if never will 'Cause only hope for love's inside a pill Searching for that something to realize The fire that burn inside his eyes But he won't fight himself, no not at all He lost his feelings when he's hard, tossed and tore And as he sits, he questions what could've been If he didn't turn his life into one of plague, struggles and sin