Warmth Inside My Blood

I miss it most in the colder months When I can notice the space in my double bed It's been a while, I should probably downsize now I call you up in my head The scenario plays out exactly how I wanted You're smiling on the other end But you're not and I want to believe But it's not helping me, no You were the warmth inside my blood that kept the death away The force around the Earth that stops the Sun from burning us The promise of a softer landing after a fall Forever the wiser, I walk with your ghost I buried you long ago and down there deep you'll decompose Oh under the words that I chiseled into your headstone Oh never again Burning under your fire, all was dark in my head With blind eyes I found the knife in my hand You were the warmth inside my blood that kept the death away The force around the Earth that stops the Sun from burning us The promise of a softer landing after a fall, a fall And I don't know what's worse The years of hurt? Convinced of what Would have been, could have been, had I been not making it hard It's the love and the loss, oh You were the warmth inside my blood that kept the death away The force around the Earth that stops the Sun from burning us The promise of a softer landing after a fall, fall