Heaven

Wake up Im still drunk Who's to judge for my bad habits I use the drugs cuz they make me happy Make me happy I'm not sad I Only smile when it feels bad I'm not sure If I even wanna be cured And I'm no good I always win but I never should I'm not well Afraid I'm gonna die and I can't tell If I'll go to Heaven Pray for me mama If I'll go to Heaven Wait for me mama I don't know Why I always lie to the good guy Why I'm always so high Why I'm always up so late And why I never cry at the good-bye Why I never choose right Never learn from my mistakes And why I always fight for the wrong side Why I'm laughing inside Looking at my heart break And why I always fall for my own bullshit I'm a drug addict And I'm good at it Hold up I'm still numb Who to trust when i lost my daddy I use the drugs cuz they make me happy Make me happy I'm not mad I don't care and I never have I'm not right I'll never quit cuz I'll never try And I'm no good I always win but I never should I'm not well Afraid I'm gonna die and I can't tell If I'll go to Heaven Pray for me mama If I'll go to Heaven Wait for me mama I don't know Why I always lie to the good guy Why I'm always so high Why I'm always up so late And why I never cry at the good-bye Why I never choose right Never learn from my mistakes And why I always fight for the wrong side Why I'm laughing inside Looking at my heart break And why I always fall for my own bullshit I'm a drug addict And I'm good at it And if I go Will I go alone If I go Heaven save my soul If I go Will I go alone Will it be heaven I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know