Not the Same (Out of Spite)

I, can't get out of bed Sometimes I dread and dread The complications of my mind, I can't tell if I'm fine No I'm not but I can't say it out loud Let the world just shake upside down and round and round I can't talk about whats in my head So sometimes its better if its left unsaid Out of spite for the decisions, In my mind I have no religion To figure out why I'm feeling this way And they all ask "is she okay?" Yeah I'm fine, I just feel like dying Don't know why, I just gave up on trying But I'm A okay. But I'm just not the same, I'm not the same I, don't know where to go I'm lost around these homes Some words just don't make any sense Am I anxious? cause I just can't help it So why am I identified by this disorder A form of order to who it really counts, there is no order I judge myself upon a screening that explains all and why Cause a chemical imbalance is all that really counts Take a little pill just to calm me down, and shake off all my fears to help me out I don't understand where to go, where's my home I don't know But wait, maybe I'm going insane now Out of spite for the decisions, In my mind I have no religion To figure out why I'm feeling this way, And they all ask "is she okay?" Yeah I'm fine, I just feel like dying Don't know why, I just gave up on trying But I'm A okay. But I'm just not the same, I'm not the same Out of spite for the decisions, In my mind I have no religion To figure out why I'm feeling this way, And they all ask "is she okay?" Yeah I'm fine, I just feel like dying