F****d Up (Hurt)

Weeks have gone by, and I still think of you This cup runs dry, think I need a round two I tried to reply, but I don't know how to I was searching for perfection, and then I found you And it was all good 'till I saw it... All those mother fuckers in your contacts... Looking at the messages, I think I get the concept My anger had been growing ever slowly in my conscience... FUCK! I BELIEVED IN YOUR LIES... Took it as truth But you stabbed me in the back just like all of them do And it killed me inside... A hollowed out dude... Foolish for believing you would help me push through But it's my fault... And I can't blame this on you so I dive off... Don't wanna talk about you, but they drive on Thinking that I'm fine but I wanna fucking DIVE OFF FUCK! Pent up with emotion and it sucks... Dreaming of an ocean and I'm stuck... Calling out for help, but no luck... Thought I was free, but I'm fucked up... Heart telling me no one loves us... It's hard to believe it was just us... Now it's me, memories made of saw dust Fine... Look, I get it... I told you I loved you; but I meant it... But I shouldn't have fallen and I regret it... I type a paragraph, I'm like "forget it..." She just gonna wanna disrespect it anyways And I'm anxious with depression Wanna cry but I prevent it Not to mention This music shit, it is making me fucking STRESSED And I'm losing stability getting reckless... I'm sorry if this hurts but I just needed to address this... I know why I'm so angry, so I gave it some direction You held onto my heart and I was hoping for protection But you cut it into pieces and then told me that I DID IT... FUCK! What is love? It could really be a drug... Withdrawals every time I think about your kisses and your hugs, and I lose it... Stupid... Tired of the lies, I just need a little true shit The betrayal's getting old and I can't keep doing this I hear them competing to see who the fucking truest is But all I see are masks, and I just can't tell who it is... So I'm by myself. Fuck it all Blow it all to fucking high-hell I'd rather love the pain in my head where I dwell Fuck friends, I would drop everything else... I did it all alone, and alone I'll prevail Suicide lines are a lie, they don't help I was dying inside, but I'm alright now I just needed to see all of the power that I held Inside of myself Quit disguising... and depriving myself... 'Cause I'll be alright With the time I will heal With a little more time than it took when I... Fell...