Forgiveness (feat. Font Size 4 Poetry)

I am not a model of forgiveness So I guess I rather stay mad I guess I rather stay mad Never holding grudges is a good plan But I guess I wanna be bad I guess I wanna be bad Check the vessels on my wrist Got blood pumpin' in 'em Got poison in my spirit Got, gotta get a grip Just breathe in Just breathe in And Heaven knows I wanna quit But can't release the venom And even if I did, would that neglect my feelings That's treason, that's treason Remember what we said The good, the bad I don't remember the good You don't remember, I'm good You can't kiss away the words you scraped into my skin We said fresh starts but here I am with fresh scars bleeding Said you love me but you done me wrong I switch off the radio when it plays our song You're the best I've ever had but I guess I'd rather stay mad So I got coping mechanisms to protect myself from folk Rope a dope, with emotions It's a boxing match for sure How you learn to trust them When you never really know 'em Get a scope With a special sight that look into they soul I'm approaching precipice my cup on overflow With a potion that bubble up from too much letting go And don't you know That hatred is engrossing Fueled by paranoia And it lead me to encroaching People I got problems I always admit it but that doesn't really solve 'em Sorrow is conditional Sorry if you sorry too I'd be petty to the grave But then I ask what Jesus do And still I take a devil's route Still I'm getting back at you Anger only come from hurt, I know it's true Should've spoken up when I first got abused Instead I let it marinate like Kountry Wayne and cooking juice This much vitriol is only hurting me, not hurting you Pitiful I am not a model of forgiveness So I guess I rather stay mad I guess I rather stay mad Never holding grudges is a good plan But I guess I wanna be bad I guess I wanna be bad I am not a model of forgiveness So I guess I rather stay mad I guess I rather stay mad Never holding grudges is a good plan But I guess I wanna be bad I guess I wanna be bad