Special

Nothing sinister starts out sober Sometimes the chemicals work me over The things you learn at four AM When do I become who I am? Save your blast from the past, this is not a mirage I'm a stolen car in a parking garage On your hands and your knees, do you feel in charge? Crawling back to who you were I just wanna feel good I wanna feel special Dig down underneath the pressure I wanna fake my pain away I wanna fake my pain away I just wanna feel good I just wanna feel good And fake my pain I just wanna feel good Good I just wanna feel good Where's the time go? Here comes the heavy low I've got two houses and a hungry, hungry ego Hard to make the best of a good thing now 'Cause this town's too big, too big for the one of me Sometimes you make friends with the enemy Am I the one on the throne or a wannabe? Are you crawling back to who you were? 'Cause I just wanna feel good I wanna feel special Dig down underneath the pressure I wanna fake my pain away I wanna fake my pain away I just wanna feel good I just wanna feel good And fake my pain I just wanna feel good Good I just wanna feel good Good I just wanna wake up Put a smile on my face that isn't made up Float just like a feather Or sink just like a stone thrown in a river I just wanna feel good I wanna feel special Dig down underneath the pressure I wanna fake my pain away (Fake my pain away) I wanna fake my pain away I just wanna feel good I wanna feel special When the hell is it gonna get better I just wanna feel good And fake my pain I just wanna feel good