Heavy Shit

I've got this window in my house Knows me better than I know myself Could probably charge me $150 an Hour for all the heavy shit I poor out I get these voices in my brain Feels like I'm part of a new strain I get the stubborn "stupid and useless" You get the heavy shit I poor out So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong Feel like a ghost in my own damn home Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out They tell me "well this is all part of life you see," But the world keeps circling 'round me No, can't seem to stop being so hard on myself Hence all the shit I poor out Still haven't found what I'm looking for No, all of these people keep closing doors They tell me "You can't keep holding all this Shit to yourself, go find a way to let it poor out." So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong Feel like a ghost in my own damn home Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out So here I am So here I am like a ghost in my own home again With this heavy shit I poor out So come on let it poor out All the heavy shit I poor out Let it poor out All the heavy shit I poor out So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong Feel like a ghost in my own damn home Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out So here I am So here I am So here I am Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out So here I am So here I am So here I am Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out