Kill and Walk Away

One carnal thought, slip of the tongue, or outright Lie to hush my soul from letting me know that I'm overcome Analyze and inspect the cause of all this selfishness, though never blaming self This is my fault, all my own fault, not owning up to the unwelcome fact I've welcomed all along I've lost my hold of all my control, not really lost at all, just given up everything I owned So take this thought, take this deed or whatever it may be Grab it by the neck and throw it down and drag it hastily Into the center of the light within the center of my life There's going to be a killing here - but it won't be me Lying down, laying dead upon the ground Oh no, I'll stand cause you enable me to stand And you allow me to fall but then you pick me up again And this is how I learn I'm nothing without you This ain't right - it's not all right It's gone too far for me to fix it So once again you must remind me It's never been within my reach To right myself, to come off clean So right my spirit and create a new heart in me And it may take a long long while But I'm waiting and still, I'm yielded and still I told myself, we told ourselves That it wouldn't end like this but now it's looking just like this This is all I can take, grab the hammer - drive the stake Into the heart of every piece of me that's pulling me down This means murder, this means kill and walk away This means freedom from myself and a longing for a change This means murder - this is murder - the only way out past myself is liberating murder