Totally Faking

I'm a party girl Crazy charismatic Caught in a rapid, oh I don't wanna dance All eyes are watching Please stop watching me I know what you want from me I'm trying my best to see I can't find the afterglow But nothing will stop the show Put me on your cross Just to watch me bleed Well I am lost And I've been totally faking That my heart is not breaking Cut me open and see There's a cost To living out in the real world Giving up, letting go of all I know, of all I know Totally faking Totally I'm not difficult It's quite ordinary to feel so unsteady, oh no No one told me there was smoke in the mirror Now it's choking me Oh, it's choking me I know what you want from me I'm trying my best to see I can't find the afterglow But nothing will stop the show Put me on your cross Just to watch me bleed Well I am lost And I've been totally faking That my heart is not breaking Cut me open and see There's a cost To living out in the real world Giving up, letting go of all I know, of all I know Totally faking Totally faking Totally faking Well I am lost And I've been totally faking Well I am lost And I've been totally faking