I Pray

I wake up everyday in so much pain Thinking will it ever stop I'm so stuck aye Just overthinking every second I honestly wanna cry I find it so hard everyday to not slip and lose my mind Nothing ever seems to work and that's what makes me broken I feel so much hurt inside and I ain't even jokin If a bitch do me wrong I would honestly bleed her open I can't trust a soul that's why when love opens I close it There's a ton of pain going through me every hunnid seconds And if I had the guts I swear on it I would fuckin neck it I never been the type to strap and pack a bunch a weapons But i feel like inflicting hurt pumping a bunch heads in I ask myself why I'm such a piece of shit And I ain't talkin drugs when I say I needa fix I barely cope and they don't know that this shit is hard That's why you always see me zoned out I feel so ripped apart My brains so far gone and I don't see no guidance I feel so fucked up and I'm just so tired I got so many problems that no body knows about But I don't say shit and maybe that's why I'm closing down I pray to god but I know he don't hear me And if he hear me then why don't he clear me What am I supposed to do I always fuck up and lose the ones I'm closest to They told me that they're down but I knew all along I would really lose my mind if they choose to do me wrong Just thinkin to myself is she just another bitch Is she gonna lie to me should I go take the fuckin risk If they fuck me over ima have to hurt them Hurt her, hurt him, ima have to murk them I don't feel no happiness I just feel pain It ain't nothing but guilt in me I just feel blame Laying in the dark thinking about all my problems Going over it a million times how I'm gonna solve them Maybe Maybe they know my pain now And I'm this fuckin close to throwin all my hate out I pray to god but I know he don't hear me And if he hear me then why don't he clear me What am I supposed to do I always fuck up and lose the ones I'm closest to