Suffer

I've been counting all times you disappeared All the times I needed you, all the times I wished you were here And I tried to find the happy memories Back in the days when we climbed trees I was made to suffer At the hands of those I love My hands still shake my heart still bleeds Your sticks and stones are the words you say And yet I still don't know where I went wrong I just know that far from you's where I belong I've been counting all the times you left me cold All those times I mourned you, left me on the other side of the world But this distance never brought me such joy Have fun with your new family, go on, play house with all your new toys And I know that I just can't forget to thank you Abandoning me was the best thing that you ever did I've built upon myself and now I'm stronger than you I don't run from my problems and I won't leave my kin Go to hell I would have been better off with a noose tied around my throat Than stuffed in a box underneath your shallow fucking throne I'm nothing like you You put down, you feed on the weak I cannot stand you You can't undo all your wicked deeds You made me suffer My hands still shake my heart still bleeds Your sticks and stones are the words you say And yet I still don't know where I went wrong I just know that I have found where I belong