Bookcase

It wasn't 'til last night I'd know frustration It was a thousand times my height A thousand times my height It cut me up and splayed me like a patient It etherised my mind And did not stand to fight Cause' I know, there are places I can't reach And things i'll never be And it hurts sometimes though, honestly Its sad but not defeat, 'cause I own the inbetween And maybe half is all I need The sky a submarine it looms so heavy I covet what I can't and that's my fault Worried always, often off the pages Worker hands on Thursdays Kurt Vonnegut on birthdays Please stay With the sunlight on your coat And a smile I'll always know Oh I don't want time to take the sun But I'll never have control And the dark will always fall On the bookcase in the hall The fact it lights my day at all It warms my heart But some nights I'm unable to cope I get lost in the figures, lie drunk on my own With the faded desire of a thing still unknown No time for revisions there's no where to go And I just take more drugs if I was more robust But I just can't get high 'cause i just lose my mind So I hope for love but I never look So I don't see the signs no I don't pay no mind To the sideway smiles or the baited eyes Is there blood in me? Am I still alive? Is there blood in me? Am I still alive? Just stay With the sunlight on your coat And a smile I'll always know I don't want time to take the sun But I'll never have control And the dark will always fall On the bookcase in the hall The fact it lights my day at all It warms my heart