Changed Ways

Yeah... Divorce is like morning a death! It takes time to heal. We need space to reflect... To learn... to grow... to break the cycle... And ultimately change... for the better A lost soul in the midst, searching for the truth Put my trust in things, but never trusted you Thought my plan would work, flippin' books for cash All I did was hurt; I hid behind a mask Never loved myself, it showed in how I act Dwellin' in the past; a frozen heart attack Wishin' I could change... the things that hurt me most Never understood... that love is just a choice Avoiding love and trust; I'd rather lust and bust Fillin' up a void, but nothing's good enough Life is passing by; I watch children grow Fearing that I'll die, miserably alone Planted evil seeds; I reaped what I've sown Please believe in me; I weep from the soul I long to see the day, when I can let it go Free to see the light; it's all relational Precious woman, I never wanted us to part The love of my life, but I was gone from the start I never meant to hurt you and hate to see you cry It was hard for me to fight when I was crumblin' inside Sometimes... I gaze upon the sky And pray that you'll be happy with another loving guy We both deserve the best in our quest to live our days I'm thankful that we met, 'cause you helped me change my ways I'm not the same man... that I used to be Thank you Lord for restoring me and blessing me Living life it's a new day... HEY... I'm livin' better now wit' my Changed Ways Thank you God for my Changed Ways I prayed to God to see Better Days Through the flames I can See Your Face Livin' free wit' my Changed Ways Reflecting on all of the women, who let me hit it I was never happy but I couldn't admit it Thinking sex would numb the pain but the emptiness remained Climax and release, then convicted of blood stains My body's not my body but a temple for the Lord But when I got bored it was porn I explored Ignoring that I'm sanctified with divine purpose Transforming to an angry guy avoiding church service Having sexual urges; our marital state worsened Cursing with resentment thinking married life was worthless I should have read the word and pressed into worship But I was more concerned with Ancient Alien sermons My faith became weak from a spiritual disturbance Having visions of demons dragging me in a furnace In retrospect, I wish I would have covered you in love But I didn't accept my role and now divorce does Precious woman, I never wanted us to part The love of my life, but I was gone from the start I never meant to hurt you and hate to see you cry It was hard for me to fight when I was crumblin' inside Sometimes... I gaze upon the sky And pray that you'll be happy with another loving guy We both deserve the best in our quest to live our days I'm thankful that we met, 'cause you helped me change my ways I'm not the same man... that I used to be Thank you Lord for restoring me and blessing me Living life it's a new day... HEY... I'm livin' better now wit' my Changed Ways Thank you God for my Changed Ways I prayed to God to see Better Days Through the flames I can See Your Face Livin' free wit' my Changed Ways Wake up – SHINE; don't take it for granted This life will break you down if you ain't spiritually planted Time passes by like a blink of an eye To those who find love it's like a star in the sky Although you don't always see it; you always know it's there So even in the face of death LOVE IS STILL THERE And some still tear at their significant other Arguing and fighting like blood sisters and brothers Resenting one another seeking undercover lovers Please get some help before it's too late to recover I took a trip to Chimney Rock where I once proposed This time I dropped on my knees and cleansed my soul I vow to love my future wife and not repeat mistakes And cherish that woman so her heart will never break Looking deep into her eyes, and saying that I love her Her spiritual cover, best friend and deepest lover Precious woman, I never wanted us to part The love of my life, but I was gone from the start I never meant to hurt you and hate to see you cry It was hard for me to fight when I was crumblin' inside Sometimes... I gaze upon the sky And pray that you'll be happy with another loving guy We both deserve the best in our quest to live our days I'm thankful that we met, 'cause you helped me change my ways I'm not the same man... that I used to be Thank you Lord for restoring me and blessing me Living life it's a new day... HEY... I'm livin' better now wit' my Changed Ways Thank you God for my Changed Ways I prayed to God to see Better Days Through the flames I can See Your Face Livin' free wit' my Changed Ways (Uh...)