Old Me

Yeah I had a lot to prove when they didn't know me I was different with the tension I go OD Used to haunt me in my dreams yeah I got no sleep But now don't even react cuz that's the old me Niggas never change niggas never change Lost so many friends cuz I ain't the same They tell me that I've changed tell me that I've changed But how y'all stay the same man it ain't the same I used to be young And what I was used to I used to let Justify what I had done Who id become Emotional motions these notions Atoning for who done me wrong Unknowing that those who effect me Were those who control me theyd troll me Id slowly become less controlling And then without warning id get so upset Reactions unfolding I'd later regret Like I had something to prove You bet I a prove You better approve You bet I won't rest till u do But it seems what I seen is that Spec of respect never moves in whatever I do Whatever im cool no not really I really lose sleep Cuz what's special to me especially me is not special to you Don't expect keeping cool being cool ain't my specialty move See these niggas say words and these words hit a nerve Like a 92 Cutlass that swerves and them dubs hit a curb Get a rash and all hate to get rash and all I get irrational Eyes get a rash and all face arms legs hands and all Places please keep your whole face out my hands of all places You facing a danger when I place my anger towards faces please face away get away safely I'm learning that I won't find salvation within a piece And I'm yearning for some changes vacations with inner peace Niggas die for their respect but tell me what it's all worth. Cuz I ain't never seen no pride take a ride when inside a hearse Yeah I had a lot to prove when they didn't know me I was different with the tension I go OD Used to haunt me in my dreams yeah I got no sleep But now don't even react cuz that's the old me Niggas never change niggas never change Lost so many friends cuz I ain't the same They tell me that I've changed tell me that I've changed But how y'all stay the same man it ain't the same Why I'm so sensetive nigga Been this way since a kid nigga If you get offensive and I take offense to that nigga I'll take a fist to that nigga Imagine the pressure and stress how they measure success By how less you get tested or pressed So you stick out your chest then with every intention To rid all the tension when shit get intense. Fuck all the trouble that comes with an ego Fuck being humble in front of you people Fuckin you up if you Mumble we rumble Arms stretched to greet you like it's nice to meet you Keyboard warriors want go to war Type so much till they thumbs sore If u want less say one less Here's one lesson you got one more Must want more I don't hesitate Fuck a stair down let it escalate I address shit at your address and shit Put some respect on it for I let it spray Cuz I'll die for my name if you lie on my name How could I live if I don't deal with you On my grave what they'll say he died young Left behind his son but he a real nigga The pride in me resides from society pressuring me Anxiety inside of me stemming from all the beef Meditation serves as the medication servicing needs My time is best when I invest in what only benefits me I just can't live like this anymore Niggas try and test me never learned to let it go Thought I had to prove I was the realest but instead The measure of how real I am was all inside my head Never needed no one to confirm just who I am As long those around me who I love know where I stand Fuck their validation fuck the judgements fuck their plans I'm the only one who determines my value as a man