Freak Show

I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind I promise I'm fine I'm doing alright And I'm back again Have you ever been so gone Have you ever felt so strong So wrong, like you belong, hah Thinking I belong too And I've been thinking for a while what I might do Break through Know I have to I didn't want to have to do it, but you slither as I past you Can't keep a pet snake, one day, it'll get outta its cage and run away like the last few This was never started for the money or the fame or the chants for my name it was just an escape Where I could write out all the sinister thoughts up in my head incorporate it into songs to try to keep myself safe But nobody wanna see the bigger picture All they focused on is how I'm having money coming quicker Everyday the population drifts away from the scriptures Here's the kicker, I don't think the world will ever see fixture It's rare to see a person take a risk in their life And work for what they want instead of working 9-5's Because it's harder and they fear how will they ever survive Without a check from someone else's bank to keep them alive And if you're happy, that's fine Go and check your schedule, another person assigned But for me I see it bigger and I've made up my mind So stop saying I can't, this decision is mine Tell me why do I still feel so alone? Don't tell me I'm wrong Been gone for way too long But I'm back again I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind I promise I'm fine I'm doing alright And I'm back again Aye, let me put you in my shoes Do you feel on edge with my views? I guess I understand what you mean when you say that it feels weird under my roof Sometimes I've got short fuse I apologize if I snap and I say something that I don't mean Bear with me please, I'm a little bit lost and real confused But I guess I can't lie, yeah I stay consumed With all the projects and the work that I get stuck in my room And I'm just searching for the rise so I can come up and boom Somehow now it's me that they looking up to What do y'all expect me to do? I'm only 21, you really think I thought this through? The old me thought that I would've been dead by now Okayyyy, if he only knew I can not go backwards in my life If I could do it all again, then I would do it twice Because I refuse to let regret go consume my mind Aye, do whatever that you want but please don't waste my time At the end of the day, this is only a rhyme And I am only a guy who is just like you Sitting here in his room, just trying to write Focused on pleasing the people who raised me If you do not know me, then please do not play with me I'm a ticking time bomb, liable to pop off Push me to the edge, do whatever that you want But please God can you please stop telling me that I'm wrong Tell me why do I still feel so alone? Don't tell me I'm wrong Been gone for way too long But I'm back again I got crazy thoughts that stay on my mind I promise I'm fine I'm doing alright And I'm back again And I got crazy thoughts And I'm back again I said I'm doing alright And I'm back again