Alive

Alive, I felt I was alive The room shook under his nervous steps I wished to not o-open my eyes, anymore In my house everything was unfamiliar Wasn't him, wasn't his fury on my bones I was wrong; I could make amend the problem that I had created And I still hung, with my nails and all my memories I was less than the idea he had about me While I kept telling myself "I just have to wait for it to pass" The hell was mine but I needed to Believe, as I still breathed I could never be more blessed than this, oh no... In my house everything was unfamiliar Wasn't him, wasn't his fury on my bones I was wrong, I could make amend the problem that I had created When words hurt more than a whole night with him My son shadow turns me back to forgive With a fast rewind, I forgot any wounds on my raped mind And your dreams, who knows where are now... And my dreams had fallen down to resist In my house everything was unfamiliar He was, and was his fury on my bones I knew I couldn't make amend the problem that I didn't create The main effort, to admit that I had really failed That I'd known the most degrading misery To discover that I could deserve more than a daily dread