Oh How We Fell

The sudden realization that not all is what it seems Rises somehow exponentially It turns from a cry into a wail Then a scream and then a howl An endless broken dull soliloquy Pain can force the hand and turn the mind The pictures taint the judgement every time Then i turn around and see a wreck strewn on the road The pictures and the pain you'll never know The pictures and the pain that i was good enough To keep from scarring you Some things are meant for you and you alone And so i add more fuel to the fire And try to find an answer in the pyre At first the flames a comfort but the smoke gets in the eyes There's only so much left that one can burn And now i find i'm dancing 'round the ashes of the bridges that i've burned I take nothing from the lessons that i've learned And so the wheel relentlessly goes round Just cuts the rut a little deeper down This youthful smile has turned into a frown The eyes forever down The spark forever drowned I'll sing as i go I've learned well that it's best not to know And i use up the last of what's left In a vain effort just to forget This arm contracts as it's pulled It's disturbing the calm of the pool I am lost in this mournful refrain While re-analyzing this stain This tainted wreck of lies again And if what you said is true I'm condemned to repeat 'till i'm through Least until i can learn to forgive Or learn simply not to relive And this dream i could weep So profoundly i finally could sleep Undisturbed by the demons and shades And this endless cycle of betrayal Oh how we fell And how is one supposed to mourn if one is not entirely sure what has died And if it's dead and if it's dead and if it's dead and if it's dead why can't i cry And all the things you told me that you read upon my palm they were lies Say that they were lies