Too Close

I don't wanna open up I don't wanna think about it I don't wanna show my feelings anymore, mm If I never talk a lot Will anybody understand it? Do I have to hide my fears in these four walls? 'Cause you ripped my heart out when I gave you love And made me feel weak when you gave it all up So I lie awake thinking am I not good enough And strangers they comment when I'm feeling down I take it to heart but I keep them around And I lie awake tryna drown it out I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm barely even here I'm too, too close to losing my senses does that make me weak? I'm numb, numb, numb Should I run, run, run? I'm too, too close to losing myself I don't wanna ghost you out I see you getting mad about it No, don't judge me on what I've become Everything is getting loud And I'm getting down about it I'll count the days until I'm strong 'Cause you ripped my heart out when I gave you love And made me feel weak when you gave it all up So I lie awake thinking am I not good enough And strangers they comment when I'm feeling down I take it to heart but I keep them around And I lie awake tryna drown it out I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm barely even here I'm too, too close to losing my senses does that make me weak? I'm numb, numb, numb Should I run, run, run? I'm too, too close to losing myself I'll drown it out I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm barely even here I'm too, too close to losing my senses does that make me weak? I'm numb, numb, numb Should I run, run, run? I'm too too close to losing myself So I'll drown it out I'm too, too close to losing myself But I'll drown it out I'm too, too close to losing myself