Wish I Never Loved You

Worried that I'll be one phone call too late Fear's turning years of love into hate Empty attempts when we meet in my sleep Embarrassed for caring ten fathoms too deep Why do I still feel like I should be sorry? Droplets of thought keep on causing tsunamis Now I'm a reminder of your locked-up past Overthinking for over-loving you too fast Stars above us, lying closely Promising me I will never be lonely Talking 'bout loving me every tomorrow Real man of your word, but there's nothing to follow Sometimes I wish I could just call you Sometimes I wish I could stop falling Sometimes I wish you could just hold me Oh, sometimes I wish I could just call you Sometimes I wish I could stop falling Sometimes I wish you could just hold me But right now I wish I never loved you Someday you will be one phone call too late You should know how it feels when fates suddenly change Floating away in your oceans of liquor Blaming yourself for the things that you didn't Yet consciously burying me in the distance In a blink of an eye, pain ceased your existence Maybe I lost you, but you lost yourself first Now I'm stuck between trying and letting you go Each encounter's getting harder I'd give up years to relive seconds of summer Eyes are useless when the mind is blind I sold my sight to the mind of a Gemini Sometimes I wish I could just call you Sometimes I wish I could stop falling Sometimes I wish you could just hold me Oh, sometimes I wish I could just call you Sometimes I wish I could stop falling Sometimes I wish you could just hold me But right now I wish I never loved you Until you're ready To share pieces and parts of your heart That were taken away from you Until then, I choose to separate myself from you Still hearing your name has me gasping for air Finding someone who'll stick around is apparently rare You taught me friendships, cause heartbreaks too Hope you're fulfilled by the things you chose to do, chose to do