Can't Sleep

I just go think of the fear I just go think of the doubt I'm thinking these terrible things inside of my brain I'm tearing them out I just need to smoke a little Maybe I should douse the flame Maybe I should shut up and go lay down Maybe I should just kill the pain Cause I can't sleep my mind just race I just feel so out of place Claustrophobic in myself I just feel I'm out of space I just need something to change I can't wait for things to go Inhaling gas like everyday I need to reignite my soul Maybe it will Maybe it won't I need a spark I pray for hope I feel lost at sea My boats full of holes When will I drown and let my grip go I just don't know Y'all gonna listen Underdog shit Tyson V Liston Been dreaming of things that's so darn vivid I shoot for the stars I'm Armstrong with it You couldn't pay me to quit now I'm feeling sick you haters gonna sit down Eight over a fifth I don't really sip now I just go wonder when I'll leave this shit town I often think will the pain go Not chasing fame I like to hang low Think I'd feel trapped feel like I'm strangled Like here's all this money but happiness dangles Yeah up at three If I can't sleep then I daydream Thinking about pain that I may see I write these songs to feel I'm free I jot these bars to help me cope When I feel broken it gives me hope When I'm awake it's picking me up Loosens this rope that's wrapped on my throat None of you get it Yeah Say it again man none of you get it I'm proving my point just by painting my picture If you do not like it bitch I do not listen It could just be crickets for sixty one minutes But if I do love it then why should I quit it Bitches are chickens for not chasing visions I'm Paul Engemann I'm pushing my limits Yeah I just feel passionate Grabbing the ladder when ya'll people passing it Jabbin at me for the way that I dream But give me five years and then try to laugh at it I'm so erratic with all of my happiness Anger will leave and then it'll come back again Don't know what's happening When will I snap again When will I fall asleep When will I gasp again Melatonin mixed with a little grass Hoping that I'm finally gonna stay asleep Stop somebody pray for me I think the devils kinda grown on me He's got a hold on me This ain't gonna be no broken dream Ya'll be quoting me Bow down till ya'll have broken knees Off of spoken schemes This is war for me God knows I'm in a race against time I think I'm losing my mind I just feel off Snap at the drop of a dime I think my happiness hides In all of my misery I'm fishing for victory I need my hand raised straight to the sky I feel beat down I feel so drained It's no question when I wonder why I need relief when I can't breathe My hand goes numb I'm barely seeing Just a freak is all they see I'm sitting alone while I'm repeating Dude just breathe stop and breathe Gotta leave this room before they pick on me Nothing that I do is gonna set me free Whether gasping in a room or I'm up at three Cause I can't sleep my mind just race I just feel so out of place Claustrophobic in myself I just feel I'm out of space I just need something to change I can't wait for things to go Inhaling gas like everyday I need to reignite my soul