Not OK!

18 with a hammer at my senior prom Ripping couches in the basement of a country club That was my first panic attack I knew couldn't get my youth all back I got a temper from my old man, used to black out Then I started drinking liquor til my cash ran down I was living in the house with the band Couldn't pay rent, couldn't keep a job, didn't have a plan Some days, man I've got it all together Most days though I'm just trying to get better Everybody's got that something We can't fix with love or money Even when it pulls me under Get so high that it just seems funny How many times can I fake it Before it breaks me, I'm not okay I'm not okay, I'm not okay 23 and skipping obligations For some fake crush when I start to lose my patience I get stoned on going too fast And what a rush when we finally crash I know a little bit more now than I used to But at the cost I payed, I'm pretty sure I got screwed I spent a few nights sleeping in my car Took it too far a couple times getting kicked out of the bar Some days, man I've got it all together Most days though I'm just trying to get better Everybody's got that something We can't fix with love or money Even when it pulls me under Get so high that it just seems funny How many times can I fake it Before it breaks me, I'm not okay I'm not okay, I'm not o... key Okey Okey Okey Maybe when 50 I'll figure it out Get my shit put together in a nice clean house Maybe that's a pipe dream Everybody's got that something we can't fix with love or money Even when it pulls me under Get so high that it just seems funny How many times can I fake it Before it breaks me, I'm not okay I'm not okay. Everyone feels like they're crazy Why can't I say it? I'm not okay I'm not okay! I'm not okay.