Finding My Purpose

Yeah, scared of love, scared of lies Thought we were the perfect pair but apprently you paralyzed You used to bare it all, and now you barley care to try And rarely let me in your territory cos you terrified I swear to god, nothing compares to how we share the vibe Baby we was parallel these other girls are paracites I saw your parents and I asked em what your spirits like They said your smile ain't been near as bright and neither has mine I used to think things get easy with time But now I see they just get easy at times Like when im drinking not thinking about how tonight you gon be sleep' in my arms My demons never rally leave fo' that long You know I'm strivin' for perfect, but life is a circus I'm grinding I'm working, while finding my purpose And reasons why I think I'm not worthless And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew Probably should've been prioritising you Say I love you with my mouth But my actions just ain't been as loud Thought I could blow up while also holding you down I'm lonley even when I've got hoes and homies around Searching for those moments we found, it never appeared If I never was clear, I ain't wanna seperate for 70 years Didn't think we'd ever be here, but here we are Had this fear of falling in love since I seen the marriage of my parents fail Life is only fair on a fairest wheel or in a fairytales Marijuana all in my fingernails, I ain't fairin' well Fake smile on my face, afraid I ain't gon' wear it well from fairy rides to farewells Sad because I'm sober put your heart inside a cast I'm so bad as a cassonova All I ask is you don't smash all these rappers I'm passing over Goin' backwards on my path to closure No GPS, the more I need you, you need me less Wish I could re-live life, wish I could relieve stress I get the same results, because I repeat steps I just can't resist, it's like I need regrets I look fine on my surface, but I'm honestly nervous I'm searching and searching, but won't find my purpose And reasons why I think I'm not worhtless And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew Didn't know It was demoralizing you