Blue and Gold

I'll stare at the flowers in your room, on the walls, on the bed I wish they'd fill my head I'd prefer fake flora imagery instead of what keeps me up at night I've been wondering what your soul looks like Is it blue and gold? I take your affections and run them through a delay Forever they will ring until I'm in my grave My body's cold and not my own I feel like a fragment of myself I'll never know the pain you hold It's just another half-faded memory I've spent hours reading everything you've ever said I memorized every line Imagined the pen It's work but it will be worth it in the end With throat sore and a fever dream I'll still sing about you through this medicated sleep I'll leave watermarks for you to trace 'Cause when I broke above the surface, all I saw was your face When I broke above the surface, all I saw was your face I take your affections and run them through a delay Forever they will ring until I'm in my grave My body's cold and not my own I feel like a fragment of myself I'll never know the pain you hold I'm trying to find you in my patience And I'd give anything to feel you in familiar places I miss it so, the feeling to go home I take your affections and run them through a delay Forever they will ring until I'm in my grave