Deep Scars

You are not alone I've cried since you been gone With you I felt at home But you're by my side yea You are not alone I've cried since you been gone With you I felt at home But you're by my side yea Man I swear I lost It all back when my cousin took her life away Depression cutting deep scars bruises still can't get this pain away I was stressed I was hurting people thought I was just a lame Until one day i came home shedding tears was running down my face This shit ain't funny It all hurts that's just the demons tryna bring me home Pain and anger made me think about just letting go Ain't wanna be here I just need Jesus to hear me though Them niggas clowned me but I swear that shit ain't easy bro Now That's a shame how when you down no one is there for you You could lose It all cause no one really wanna hear you through Scared of dying always crying no one really cared for you But when you're gone they pray to god hoping heavens where you made It to Do you feel the pain I feel something like you always dying Can't get relief head off the swivel the shit that get us crying Felt like I'm dying just want a perk just to put this shit behind me I was Weak ain't get no sleep with all this stress that been inside me I felt cold almost like I ain't even have a soul Chest was heavy hardly breathing I was feeling broke You know that pain you feel in your heart when you lost someone close Well that's the pain I'm feeling daily niggas never know yeah yeah You are not alone I've cried since you been gone With you I felt at home But you're by my side yea You are not alone I've cried since you been gone With you I felt at home But you're by my side yea Now lemme take you back before the days I started rapping. When I was weak a loose link my life was just all but a tragic And I was down thinking about better days asking god about the things I can't imagine A lot was going on but I never thought beyond depression I had to open up my eyes and see my life why so dramatic Tears shedding wondering why with the pain I'm feeling panic Took my struggles off my chest made It a song this shit a classic My life flashed before my eyes like a movie so cinematic Now tell me why I never feel the hope with my success No my side when I heard my cousin laid to rest I always scrutinize it's cause I want the best to be the best I told the truth and I tried to overcome to beat the test I think a lot is on my mind so I gotta hold off I been going through some shit and I just wanna go off Just want a addy and a perc so when I'm down I zone off Deep scars deep scars Lotta shit is on pause Mixed emotions in my head I think It's causing deep thoughts Hearts been broken countless times I end up feeling so lost Happiness I don't know that shit cause depression makes It worse Deep scars deep scars lotta shit is on You are not alone I've cried since you been gone With you I felt at home But you're by my side yea You are not alone I've cried since you been gone With you I felt at home But you're by my side yea Joelle, you'll always have a pice of my heart, rest in peace