Abandoned

In this life I been abandoned left broken all a nigga really need is hope I can't go out in public nothing ever feel the same no more In this life I been abandoned left broken all a nigga really need is hope I can't go out in public nothing ever feel the same no more Put my all in this music, prayin imma make It far let y'all in my heart In this life I can't stand It sometimes thinkin if I wanna blow my head right off As a youngin getting clowned on pops left em on his own first time lil nigga felt abandoned Ain't have no friends was all alone while he was tryna make a change then depression settled in and It was drastic Thinking bout days without his father couldn't get It off his mind traumatized he'd let any nigga have It He just wanted shit to change thought bout blowin out his brains sleep at peace and leave the pistol in the casket Seen so many die in these streets nah he would feel selfish if he ever took his life away Told his momma that he loved her he ain't tryna be the same he tryna live to see another day Next day walked into the church shed a tear and let off all the pain and anger in his face Lil nigga life is so rough being let down so much in his heart he felt so betrayed In this life I been abandoned left broken all a nigga really need is hope I can't go out in public nothing ever feel the same no more Put my all in this music prayin imma make It far let y'all in my heart In this life I can't stand It sometimes thinkin if I wanna blow my head right off Now Fast forward some years now he living life Getting stronger still feel depression kicking It ain't feeling right Tried to make a change and started rapping to bring It to the light But niggas want em down and he humble tryna change his life Still abandoned heartbroken older nigga tryna get it Got a kid that's coming soon a new family and he gifted Wife rocking bro's beside em a Nigga try em they a flip em He been at It since a teen spreading music so they feel em Young nigga from the trenches he ain't got another chance Either dead or in a cell sacrificed his life to rap Judge tried to take away his days And he was speechless ain't know what to say Lil nigga life is so rough think he really had enough in this life he can't take no more Feeling down for so long Cause he's been lost and just wants to let go In this life I been abandoned left broken all a nigga really need is hope I can't go out in public nothing ever feel the same no more Put my all in this music, prayin imma make It far let y'all in my heart In this life I cant stand It sometimes thinkin if I wanna blow my head right off