I’ll go ahead and tell you right now

This beat sounds like heaven

But it hurts like hell

Yeah

See what hurt me most as a kid

Was lookin’ in the mirror think I look like shit

Roamin’ round the halls with no attention never quits

I was searchin’ for acceptance getting' none of it

4 years later, graduated, then dropped out of college

Feeling stupid, couldn’t make it, see I got it honest

Wish I fell in love and got attention like the rest

But instead I lay awake in bed and never rest

Turned to nicotine and finding feelings in a bottle

But its only hitting harder when I’m at the bottom

Scary thoughts been bringing in the pain I know I got ‘em

Seems like every day I'm making up a different problem

Everybody has a time when they wish they were numb

Even Jesus was a human I bet he had some

I’ll admit all my sinful ways were stupid fun

But they’re only getting worse until my time has come

So while you’ve been out and hanging with your friends

I’ve been counting down the seconds ‘til depression ends

The other day I went out in public I was stressin’ all these other people probably judging me Cause maybe I ain’t kept up with the latest trends

Or maybe it’s cause I don’t drive a Benz

See the word in side my lens and you might feel the pain

You probably don’t know how it feels to think that you’re insane

Or how it feels to get excited when outside it rains

cause the sky is cryin’ with you and you feel accepted

Always stress about the stupid shit my heart is unprotected

I know all my actions will eventually catch up with me

But they’re helpin’ get rid of the hurt that’s stickin’ w me

Heard a doctor say there’s no such thing as depression

Only how you feel with all the things in your possession

well if that was true then tell me how the fuck to breathe?

cause I'm counting down the days until it’s time to leave

I'm feeling down under