Bedtime Story

Let's take it way back Before I was LouisV Before I started popping pills and before I dove off in these streets Before I even had a family because nobody wanted me For anybody that's confused let me tell you what I mean Fresh out the womb my momma threw me in the trash I hope she was feeling bad Got me thinking where was dad Was she really by herself It's messing with my mental health And I been calling out for help But I realize I'm by myself Turned 12 and I seen Ryan pass away I guess I wasn't prepared The next week school moved on but in my mind I was scared Like can you tell me why he died What he do Was it his fault They told me he was sick Even with God sometimes you still fall Can't say how that made me feel Let's skip ahead a couple years Tryna fit in wit my peers I kept a smile from ear to ear Remember ash would always tell me bought her problems Then I would help her solve them She finally found a man I can't believe that she was falling Then I went out of town all my friends was steady calling They told me Ashlie killed her self just wish I could've saw her So much pain at a young age I just couldn't do it Put a gun right by my head I touched the trigger I couldn't do it This a pain song Smoke until my pain gone I know my days are short I just hope that I don't take long I'm addicted to these pills but I'm still hoping ion take none I roll a blunt of gas like fuck probation ima face sum I fight depression everyday so it's hard to keep my smile up Sometimes I be good until them losses start to pile up Couple hundred on my drip yea I'm tryna get my style up The city that I'm from all these niggas do is follow But I'm on my own path Venting to my song pad Got a little fame but they still telling me it won't last Remember we was down bad Running from a toe tag Had no ref to throw flags This life we living so fast Momma left me in a dumpster I was all by my lonely They tried to put me on the bus I'm tryna buss down a Rolex They tryna tell me ian bout it, I can tell they don't know me Tryna stack 100 mill and split it all with my Brodie's Thinking bout the meals I missed What's I crazy world we live I really hate this space I'm in RJ hate the case he in I been sending prayers up to God just tryna live again Take the top right off the viper I'm just tryna feel the wind All them long nights I remember Got kicked out around September I was balling by the winter Can't show love no I can't feel it