From Nothing

All that I am Came from nothing No lies Story of my life I lost it all right in front of my eyes No time to sympathize Push it down, internalize Endless nights Locked inside my mind Nowhere to go Just keep it to yourself I am alive For the first time I didn't leave you You left yourself behind You left yourself behind Tell me something If it wasn't for the name Would you still treat me the same Or would you turn and walk away? There is nothing That I'd enjoy more Than if things could just go back To the way they were before But no This will never be okay Even when you say you'll stay You're always gone anyway So please Don't make a promise you can't keep No need to try to cry to me I promise I'm not losing sleep All my life I've been waiting to die Night by night I dream of suicide I realize I've been trying to hide From the monster within me Dwelling inside Why oh why Did it have to be me? I've asked this endlessly But now I finally see I am the one to blame For the pain and the scars I couldn't handle my mind So I tore it apart If I don't believe in myself Why would anyone else? If I don't believe in myself Why would anyone else?