Better

I always feel like I'm a let down Cause being selfless, it's hard work And I've never been one to listen So we never have this conversation And lately I've been feeling down (I'm feeling down) Cause nothing turns out right I hate the way I think about myself sometimes Overwhelmed and insecure No matter how I've tried I can't catch the break I've needed all this time I can't do this again Constantly fearing What I should just ignore But I'm trying everything To make myself better Even though I know that it's not right I can't help but just repeat These cycles of ambition That leaves me in defeat Cause time's always against me Who knows if I'll win All I know that it's not healthy Thinking I'm never enough for Never was for you It seems that I will let you down My conscience has a way Of pushing all my logic out I can't regress to how it was back then No matter how I feel things caving in I won't do this again Can't help but feeling Much more guilt than before I'm trying everything now To make myself better I know I'm guarded I've heard that all before Been trying everything now To make myself better Even though I know that it's not right I can't help but just repeat These cycles of ambition That leaves me in defeat Cause time's always against me Who knows if I'll win All I know is it's not healthy Thinking I'm never enough for Never was for you I know I'm better than this I will be better than this Better than this (You'll see that I"m so much more) So much better than this (Don't know who I was before) It's kind of like staring at pictures together All the time never thought that I'd get better Constantly fearing what I should just ignore But I'm trying everything to make myself better