Pill Talking

I don't love you baby, that was the pill talking I've been running lately, avoiding my real problems I'm just sitting here thinking there's gotta be more to life For everything that I been through, my heart is colder than ice Man it's frozen, I can't wait 'til this chapter closes I'm hopeless, the bible full of pressed roses Sitting on the counter reminds of times That my eyes flowed like a fountain My mind is full of cowards Memories that I wish I could finally escape I really wish that happiness had a time and a place One thing I know, it's so hard letting go I hold on, to what kills me baby Sometimes I know I'd be better alone I'm so cold, I been damaged baby I don't love you baby, that was the pill talking I been running lately, avoiding my real problems I'm addicted to the hurt, I like that shit And if pain was a woman, I would wife that bitch I take the pin out the grenade, hold it and hug it And let that motherfucker blow, I'm so self-destructive Two words that describe me, savage and flawed Cared nothing at all about the damage I cause I walk out of a thing as fast as I came Every time I try to change, it's gas to a flame I get on a rollercoaster and don't even buckle up Every time I get love, I feel the need to fuck it up I do it every time with no hesitation I don't know why but I'm in love with self-deprecation One thing I know, it's so hard letting go I hold on, to what kills me baby Sometimes I know I'd be better alone I'm so cold, I been damaged baby I don't love you baby, that was the pill talking I been running lately, avoiding my real problems There's something else that I feel in my soul For so long I know my heart has froze Just how it goes, it's the highs and the lows This I know, this I know One thing I know, it's so hard letting go I hold on, to what kills me baby Sometimes I know I'd be better alone I'm so cold, I been damaged baby I don't love you baby, that was the pill talking I been running lately, avoiding my real problems