I never wanted you to see me in my defeat

I never wanted you to open me up and leave

I never wanted you to say that you need me, discard what you don't need, pretend that you don't see tension on my heartstrings

This year has been a minute

A flash, nostalgic ridden

Thinking about my past like a forgotten vision

Clinging to the vanity, of labels that fit on nicely

If you think you know me, ask yourself when we last spoke

On and on and on and on, we say that we are going strong

You're the only one I know who won't lie

My friends have moved to different states

Some of us have made mistakes

The pride that keeps us well awake, will subside

I never wanted you to see me in my defeat

I never wanted you to open me up and leave

I never wanted you to say that you need me, discard what you don't need, pretend that you don't see tension on my heartstrings

This year has been a minute

A flash before I spin it

Into my design, cause you don't need permission

To walk in your direction, I've always looked for validation

But nothing's worth the pain, if it can't give you joy

On and on and on and on, we say that we are going strong

You're the only one I know who won't lie

My friends have moved to different states

Some of us have made mistakes

The pride that keeps us well awake, will subside

I never wanted you to see me in my defeat

I never wanted you to open me up and leave

I never wanted you to say that you need me, discard what you don't need, pretend that you don't see tension on my heartstrings

(Woah)

I've been speaking a lot, inside my head, trying to find the words that are unsaid

Trying to find a new crowd to connect with these thoughts before I lay them to bed

Oh I know, the bigger picture will someday show, before it does I am ready to go

Into this city with all of my energy leave the anxiety at the door

I always want more, searching for answers to questions like war

Fighting identity like it's an enemy, hoping serenity will someday shelter me

Maybe I'll let you inside, but would like what you'd find?

I change by the minute, inspired then quit it, but this is my one chance at being alive

I'm gonna thrive, I'm gonna thrive

This is my one chance at being alive

This is my one chance at being alive

I never wanted you to see me in my defeat

I never wanted you to open me up and leave

I never wanted you to say that you need me, discard what you don't need, pretend that you don't see tension on my heartstrings

(Woah)