Farewell Wanderlust

"You look like I need a drink," he winked As he slipped from my grasp to the bar, "And you are?" He said, "Me?" (me), "Little me?" (little me) He called (he called) from the brink of the day (from the brink of the day) He said, "Hey, darling, hey, hey, darling, hey I'm the hardest goodbye that you'll ever have to say" You don't know it yet, but I'm the cupid of things That you just didn't get, that you struggled to say I'm the saint of the paint that was left in the pot I'm your angel ellipsis, your devil of dots Every time that you fumble, I'm the laugh from the back When you think about him, my wings start to flap When you make a mistake, my feet lift from the floor And when you lie there awake every night, love, I soar I promise you I'll be better I promise you I'll try But like rubbing wine stains into rugs, it's my curse To try and make it right, but by trying make it worse I'm the heartbreak that aches far too much to be shunned All those letters unsent and that garden ungrown I'm the captain of courage that you've eternally lacked I'm the Jesus of wishing to Christ he'll come back Because farewell wanderlust, you've been, oh, so kind You brought me to this party, but you left me here behind So long to the person you begged me to be She's down, she's dead Instead what is left but this old satin dress And the mess that you left When you told me that I wasn't right in the head "You alright?," asked the boys from beyond You gave us such a fright We'd hate to see your mascara drip into your pint Might you allow me to slip into something more comfortable then? Be our guest With a hoik of her bra, she waved to the bar, and slipped into the night "Come, devil, come," she sang, "Call out my name" Let's take this outside, 'cause we're one and the same Our gods have abandoned us, left us instead Take up arms, take my hand, let us waltz for the dead I'm the face that stares back when the screen goes to black When your mom says you look healthy But you know she means you got fat I'm the tales that the guests will applaud and believe I'm the child that you just didn't have time to conceive I promise you I'm not broken, I promise you there's more More to come, more to reach for, more to hurl at the door Goodbye to all my darkness, there's nothing here but light Adieu to all the faceless things that sleep with me at night This here is not makeup, it's a porcelain tomb And this here is not singing, I'm just screaming in tune Because farewell wanderlust, you've been ever so kind You brought me through this darkness, but you left me here behind And so long to the person you begged me to be He's down, he's dead Now take a good long look at what you've done to me He's down, he's dead He's gone, oh, he's lost He's flown, he's fled Now take a good long look at what you've all done to me