Shallow Pond

I paint my eyes black

Let my heart go slack

And then I go dancing

Until my feet bleed

I lie in the cold dark

Waiting for hint of a spark

Fumbling numbly with strangers

Praying for reprieve

Cuz there’s a thought that lingers in me

That I just can’t shake

It keeps me up at night

Kissing my eyelids ’til I’m wide awake

I let you in

I let you in

I let you in

Now how the hell am I supposed to let you out?

I am a cave longing for a day in the sun

I am a loose tooth in love with the gum

Rip me out before I rot us both

And I know

That you will forget me

And one day you’ll find

A picture, or maybe a limb I left behind

And you’ll take a moment

To remember my name

And that day I know something inside will die

But there’s a realization I have made

That I just can’t hide from

There is a space

There is a space

That I have made for you

So deep inside my chest

You tell me she’s lovely

I can feel that she is

I hope she’s a typhoon

Who can make you resist

The urge to love a shallow pond

Cuz I was an ocean of sharp rocks and debris

I left you bruised I gnawed on you between starving teeth

Yet you managed to cradle my depths

And there’s a thought I have

That leaves me gasping for air

And all I wanna do is tell you

But you’re not here

I love you so

I love you so

So I let you go

And maybe one day

We can find yesterday again

Let’s just find yesterday again

Can we find yesterday again?

Will we find yesterday again?