It's Called Autism (feat. Jameson Gerdon)

Why can't you understand me Why can't I understand you What can I do to get through to you Look at my new born child Healthy as can be Just kidding He's got a diagnosis nobody can see It's called Autism The spectrum that wrecked him A prison within I feel like I lost him His mind is a puzzle But I'm the one in pieces Doctors say there's no cure So I pray to Jesus I'd never chose this kind of news If birth is a gamble Did I just lose It's always a surprise when a dream dies And you realize it's time to reprioritize And your happily ever looks miserable forever And there's no hope your kid will ever get better I feel guilty for feeling sad Your is kid is special Aren't you glad A kid like Kodi Lee can't be that bad He looks normal Used to speak 100 words, but lost them Didn't vaccinate and he still got Autism Why can't you understand me Why can't I understand you What can I do to get through to you Why can't you understand me Why can't I understand you Oh can you see what I'm going through Sometimes I wonder What did I do wrong You acting normal didn't last that long Now you destroy your room And smear poop on the wall I remember when you first learned how to crawl You used to smile and respond to my voice Now you don't know where to look because of all the noise Sometimes I can't stand seeing him He reminds me of the prayers God isn't answering I'm trying to be a good father Why bother If I left, you'd find another What should I do when you scream for hours I wanted to be super dad but I lost my powers Sometimes I say life would be better without you A coping mechanism for my broken heart coming through Before you judge and invalidate my feelings Would you love me And help this bleeding heart find healing Why can't you understand me Why can't I understand you What can I do to get through to you Why can't you understand me Why can't I understand you Oh can you see what I'm going through What's going to happen after I die Tell me how to switch places I promise I'll try Nothing's for sure Still hoping for a cure Even when people judge me For thinking you're not pure Gluten Free Dairy Free Is anything but free Supplements and protocols are costly They say divorce comes eventually When ASD puts stress between your mom and me ABA therapy and evaluations are expensive $60,000 dollars a year just to live This is insane How can I get in that brain I'm sorry if my panic is causing you pain Maybe you're the strong and silent type But you're not that strong You're a kid This is wrong If you're happy and you know it Say something Even I hate you Is better than nothing I know you're not the only one This is an epidemic taking all our sons This feels like silence before the slaughter Lord, please don't let this happen to my daughter