Never Thought

Never thought I'd end up here Stuck between ecstasy and fear Living in my aunt's apartment Eating leftovers, leaving at 3 pm Always thought I'd be a star Or know how to drive a goddamn car Brand new kitchen for my mom Lots of a cats a couple dogs I always thought I'd have more friends Or at least know I'm liked by them But they don't call me all that much And I'm too bummed to hit them up I never thought I'd leave this place This city that I thought was made for me And what I wanted But what I wanted isn't what I've got The homeless men inside my head say Fuck, at least you've got a bed Never thought that I could fall Guess I never really thought at all Sick of doing shit and not getting paid for it Sick of being told you just gotta wait for it What am I waiting for? I'm just Getting old and Getting bored of Waiting for cars to make a turn When I've got the right of way I earned Standing on this filthy street in the rain Not something I should have to explain