What If

Just imagine if I never heard of rap (yeah) Never heard of Pac, no Biggie, or heard of Mac (nah) Never made a name or put my city on the map (map) And never made a record that was dissing mumble tracks, yeah I bet that I would probably take the safe route (yeah) Probably work a wack nine to five and I'd blow my fuckin' brains out (boom) Never finding no ways out, I'd be posted up in this same town (damn) Never see these commas that been flowing through my PayPal We're about to be crazy from emotions I'm concealing (woo) Stay laid awake while I'm Contemplating my life, looking at the ceiling And take some medication just to dull the way I'm feeling (huh?) Then post it up on that 'Gram to make my life look more appealing Yeah, I keep my focus, go to college and be straight Then I live the rest of my life with an occupation that I hate (yeah) Maxing out like all of my credit with some bills I cannot pay (pay) Then convince my fucking kids that They should go and do the same (Woo) Dear Lord, my kids'll tell me what they wanna be (be) Then I tell them "Go to college" even if they disagree (-gree) Let the system beat them down while it Just proceeds to kill their dreams (yeah) And I watch, as they all become as miserable as me Ya'll know ain't no doubt if I never heard Rap, I'd be a mess I'd be knee deep in that liquor and I'd be drowning in my debt (debt) Work all day but I get no rest (rest) Just get by with a minimal check Tell me what's the point in my life when I'm only living with regret? Damn, and I been wondering if I ever gave my best yet Probably be the same until I'm posted on my death bed, huh If I never heard of rap I know that nothing would be the same (yeah) But this is who I'm meant to be, this fucking shit is in my veins (go) I'm ready to kill it, not leaving a witness I'm coming to level the game Man I been living with no kind of limits I body you bitches, don't get in my way (yeah) Never be dealing with none of you lames Ain't no comparing us, we not the same Ya'll have been tripping, the void I been filling Got better from music, I'm numbing the pain Man I really wish I had this booth (booth) When I was a kid locked in my room (room) Fuckin' with a razor blade 'til I fade away And I was hopin' that my day comes soon Wanted to make it but know I never got through Said "I'd be the best", but I had no proof But I've got 'em talking now 'cause I'm bossing out And my dreams about to come true Now we trippin' overseas Devil in me, gotta pack the Rosaries Left fam and they meant the most to me Had to put 'em in the past, they don't believe Real quick for the fam and the ones who doubted Come take a look at all the guap I'm countin' Living on top, it don't get too crowded (nah) Know I'm alone but I feel surrounded, damn Make a name with this filthy grind (grind) Ya'll can't break what I built this time Could of died from all the shit I've done But I beat the odds and I will survive Still I do what I please (woo) Putting the profit off of my kings (yeah) But I gotta take the time to just pray to God 'Cause life had me down on my knees Yeah, so ain't no question, I'm about to do it right (right) I be sacrificing everything and Grinding through the night (let's do this) While I spill my fucking heart out when I get up on this mic 'Cause I know one day they gon' Hear me and I'ma change my fucking life