To You, It's Just Words

I'm a mess Night after night, counting drink after drink But I always seem to find you In the fourth, and my spine in the sixth I didn't know who you were But I knew that it would end like this I'm a mess and I've learned Through a blur that you can't feel regret If you don't feel alive With you I always had a feeling of home I had never known before But this home was built on lies and negligence, and never for us If that is where my heart has gone, I never want to see it again The house that we built, the walls have caved in It will never harbour life again Only ghosts of those long lost Haunting the dust filled rooms They will never harbour love again Backstabber Heartbreaker I'll spend the rest of my life in the gutter Asking why the fuck I ever let you in I'm a mess Night after night, counting drink after drink But I want to break my fucking neck So I never have to feel anything for you again And everything you said Will never mean a thing Just a pinch of sand In your hourglass hands If you are where my heart has gone Then I never want to see it again A forked tongue wrapped around your halo And the snake wrapped around your throat To you, it's just words and to me, you're a deadweight To you, it's just words and to me, you're a deadweight Deceiver You had me blinded with a promise that you couldn't keep We sang the same song but always to a different tune To you, they're just words, like the fake ones that you spew To me, to me it's fucking misery