Carnival

I wish I was a couple years older Couple years wiser Just so I could know your heart But I know that it would still confuse me anyway I felt just a few degrees colder Ever since the day you left Spare my soul Now I can still feel the pieces of my youth just stripped away What is life but a merry-go-round Just circling doubts living up in my head I know that they want me dead Keep me up when I try to stay down I try to forget all the things they said But they won't let me go I try to fall asleep But they won't let me dream I just hope someday we'll come to terms I'm falling underneath And I try so hard to breathe As this roller coaster kills me So this goes out to the mind games in my head You raise hell every night inside of my bed I don't know where you came from But I won't play your carnival no more I wish I was just a little stronger So they couldn't beat me up But they did Now I can still feel the mulch that they kicked at me pierce my hope So I dusted off my shoulders and then Told myself that I could prove it to them Just trying to justify the first taste of feeling low I try to fall asleep But they won't let me dream I just hope someday we'll come to terms 'Cause I'm falling underneath And I try so hard to breathe As this roller coaster kills me So this goes out to the mind games in my head You raise hell every night inside of my bed I don't know where you came from But I won't play your carnival no more