Find Me

If I'm not outside, you find me I know a couple things about the pain Rush of motivation, seconds later I'll still feel insane Appointment cancelations, I know she won't see me Doctor you can never make these demons leave me Old friends losing touch, I hope they're missing me I swear it's not as tough as I thought it would be. I wish I could feel sad, I'm just always feeling nothing Always needing someone or something to distract me from irrelevance Always needing something to bring me up Drowning all these demons But the air comes back to their lungs in time The echoes of that girl trapped in those lines I've been out of ways to cope Plastic smiles and plastic hope Show me the ways of love and fear Is it too late to learn? I am still here Find me If I'm not outside, you find me If I could tell you what it's like to look for hope under the darkness Never striking gold I swear that's not even the hardest part The hardest part is pretending that I'm alright, and I'm still good Eventually I'll see past darkness - live in light Never take for granted how some smiles in the dark seen bright Even if I'm not I'll still tell you that I'm alright I'm still good I'll still tell you that I'm alright I'm still good Drowning all these demons But the air comes back to their lungs in time The echoes of that girl trapped in those lines I've been out of ways to cope Plastic smiles and plastic hope Show me the ways of love and fear Is it too late to learn? I am still here Find me If I'm not outside, you find me If I'm not outside your house in fifteen If I'm not breathing then please forgive me I haven't been able to trade the fear with the good news that I'll never hear I'm feeling down Find me bring me up I'm feeling down Find me bring me up I'm feeling down Find me bring me up I'm feeling down won't you finally bring me up