Constant Source of Disappointment

An itching thought forever haunts me Never to be shut out When will they realize I'm nothing But someone others always doubt My misery results from failure And the wasted hours spent Wond'ring when a cure is coming For mending resentment There are times when I just Wish my life was mine It's tearing me apart inside I wish I could run and hide But never will I go astray From the hateful words they say Bruised my skin with expectations As my mind dissolves away There will be no moments to resent Constantly a disappointment Time and time again I falter Without both'ring to get up Why would I attempt to change things When it's all just a setup The destination is apparent No escaping from this place My life is planned and so I play it Play it safe like a disgrace I keep telling myself Everything is fine It's tearing me apart inside I wish I could run and hide But never will I go astray From the hateful words they say Bruised my skin with expectations As my mind dissolves away There will be no moments to resent Constantly a disappointment All I wanna do is make them happy But my own self worth is lost Maybe I should toss the towel in Give it up but at what cost? Losing and becoming something smaller Cannot be a choice to make So then hoping high and aiming taller Is a risk that I will take It's tearing me apart inside I wish I could run and hide But never will I go astray From the hateful words they say Bruised my skin with expectations As my mind dissolves away There will be no moments to resent Constantly a disappointment There will be no moments to resent Constantly a disappointment