It's hard for me to open up.

It's hard for me to try and trust.

I feel like I got no more feeling

I just need a hug or some love

But dont put in the effort.

Cuz nobody cared.

Why would they now?

I made it this far

And all by myself

And I don't know how

But I'm still gonna do it.

Yeah Im still gonna do it.

I'm scared of the past and

The person I was.

There's people i've hurt

I know I am the cause.

Afraid of emotion

Im hiding the pain

Inside of my brain

And deep in my heart.

Where would I start?

I hate to admit it

I'm scared of your thoughts

And what you will think

What you will say.

And what you will do

Your all that I have,

And all that I got.

You say were not close,

Because I am so closed.

I wanna share,

But its so deep in my soul.

And where will this go?

Whats gonna change if you know?

Im not tryina make you feel low but

My pride is too big

And Im not gonna cry.

I don't wanna change

I finished the tears

And buried my fears

Forgot all the years

That made me today

There’s nothing say.

Im proud of myself

For what I have become,

But i'm not the same

And i'm not going back.

I know when we talk

It can get really deep

Your the shark in the water

I try not to bleed.

A whiff of my fear

And im pushing you back.

Try to dig deeper

Feel under attack.

Hating and dwelling

Won't do me no good,

Im doin just fine

I've gotta progress.

I've Always been a private person

I'm not allowed to show me hurting.

I think that I would be a burden.

Yeah think that I would be a burden yeah.

I've always been a private person

Not allowed to show me hurting.

I think that I would be a burden.

I think that I would be a burden so,

Maybe its just better if I stay hidden inside

I know ill be ok,

I know ill be ok.

Maybe its just better if I stay hidden inside

I know ill be ok,

I know ill be ok.

What if I just never tell?

I wouldn't be lying,

I wouldn't deceive,

Just don't wanna grieve

Afraid you will leave

Like everyone els

I don't wanna cling

Held on by a sting

Held on by this rope

Around on my neck

I've got to protect

The shadow inside

Or I'm gonna hang

Not losing myself

Not losing again

Yeah I gotta a lot on my plate.

Hiding from alla the hate.

Hiding from alla the pain.

Hiding form alla things that I cannot control and its pulling me down.

Maybe its better this way.

Maybe were better apart.

Why is this breaking my heart?

Hoping for better my soul has been taken I cant feel emotion i'm feeling so numb.

Im making things so complicated.

Im Losing thoughts i'm feeling faded.

Im Hopin you arnt feeling jaded.

Im prolly better isolated.

And I don't wanna a downer.

And I don't want to be a doubter.

And I don't wanna be a coward..

My thoughts are always getting louder yeah.

Im scared to be vulnerable,

Demons immovable,

I am not suitable,

Might be delusional,

Caught in a crucible,

Im indisputable

Life is illusional,

Am I improvable?

How can I tell?

Im living in hell.

Not bringing you here.

Im better alone.

It's better this way,

All by myself.

You focus on you,

I'll focus on me.

Maybe its just better if I stay hidden inside

I know ill be ok,

I know ill be ok.