Desperate

I'm so desperate for attention But I hate the lights I can't make sense of Much in my life, I'm trying to get right I'm lost for direction But I know that the pressure Is gon' make me shine I'm trying to make these moves from a place of strength But desperation is the state I'm in Grinding daily, still ain't made a cent And it's the first of the month, it's time to pay the rent Wake up, shoes on, Work hard, move on Next day, same shit, I can't take it My heart and my mind, Ready set, they're racing Go hard, chase it, No more waiting This mile I'm running keeps on getting longer Put your foot into my shoes see why I wish I could be stronger Give you all my blood, my sweat, my tears, but give you not my honor I am not the man I am today because I couldn't conquer, but the problem is I be feeling low I be feeling like I don't know Maybe if I hustle now, later it'll flow I just gotta know, am I on the right road? I'm so desperate for attention But I hate the lights I can't make sense of Much in my life, I'm trying to get right I'm lost for direction But I know that the pressure Is gon' make me shine I'm desperate for more, but what am I chasing? The money, the power, the adoration? I want everything right now, it's really testing my patience I swear it's gon' be my death to reach my final destination I give myself this pressure just to prove that I won't break But is proving it worth losing all the ones who make me great? I'm pushing them all away, the ones that I'm trying to carry I have no one left to live for and honest, this shit is scary If I could step outside myself, I'll tell you what I'd say Everything you think you want is getting in the way The money and the power don't mean shit without no purpose You think it solves your problems but that's only on the surface You ain't worried who you hurting, you just thinking of yourself I ask you: Is it worth it if you got nobody left? Choosing wealth over the health of your spirit cannot heal you You only desperate 'cause you're chasing after a life that's gonna kill you I'm so desperate for attention But I hate the lights I can't make sense of Much in my life, I'm trying to get right I'm lost for direction But I know that the pressure Is gon' make me shine