If I could measure all the energy I’ve spent trying to make other people comfortable

There’s no telling what I could have accomplished with that kind of time

I could have changed the world, made it better

Made a difference, do things that matter

But instead I worried about you, how you felt

Who you think I should be

Boy or girl, can it not just be me

I always felt different, but I also wanted to be loved

So I toned it down sometimes to fit in, feel wanted

But I played it up too, might as well flaunt it

It’s taking me so long to find the true me

I still struggle and wonder if I’m all I can be

We adjust and conform, mostly to please others

There’s times I wake up, I just don’t wanna bother

I wish I knew the difference

I wish I knew the difference

When I was little I prayed to grow up as a boy

I looked in the mirror, dressed in clothes from my brothers

Baggy and tough

Not elegant like my mother

I got married to a man, thinking that I could

Squeezed into summer dresses, hoping to look good

But the mirror still showed me, another side of me

The side that felt alone, too scared to be

Why do we care so much, pink or blue

Why can’t you just be you

Why is there anger over boys loving boys

Why does a kid only get to play with a certain kind of toy

I may not know a lot of things, but this I know for sure

I love my wife and kids the same, maybe even more

Because the family I have, I never took for granted

I’ve had to fight to have it

I still fight to have it

Sing about what you know, well this is my story, still playing out

No one can do it for me

I want this song to say it’s ok to doubt and to wonder

And not just if you’re gay

We come in all shapes, people that is

We all want our person, whoever that is

But we have to be strong, stronger than most

Hold our heads high, when we’re asked to stay low

Hold our heads high, when we’re asked to stay low