After School Special

I don't like parties

Unless it's Halloween

Dress up like someone else

Someone that isn't me

Watch me digress

To a familiar place

If it works it works

So why risk changing up the pace

And I've gotten so good

At letting myself down

That when things are well and I'm feeling fine

It kinda freaks me out

Know just what to say

Know just how much to give

If I come too clean, will it fit the narrative?

'Cause all I do lately is hang around

Make plans just to cancel them

And stay at the house

Chill in the basement

And watch old DVDs

Play Nintendo 64 until my fingers bleed

And on the drive home

I can't help but think about

How I wouldn't change a single thing

About the here and now

Pull up to the stoplight

And I watch time freeze

Hope I remember this when my hair's gray

And my knees are weak

Strike a match now, baby

Let's burn it down

Wash all the blood off of our hands

As we escape the crowd

And I've been thinking maybe

I want more than this

Does it scare you to think

There's more than lust there

When we kiss?

My head's so hazy

I build walls around myself

It's toxic, if it's lost

Can it still be found?

So take me somewhere

Where we can be alone

Lock all the doors and

Unplug all the phones

The timing could not be worse

Of that I'm well aware

But your lips have a way of reminding me

That good things come in pairs

So take your time with me

I swear I'll do my best

Bury all my insecurities

Inside your neck

If I could breathe you in

For just one more second

I'll remember why I always try

To try and try again

Roll over to face you

And I watch time freeze

Know I'll remember this when my hair's gray

And my knees are weak